Live in the Fear

Only a drop of the ink is all it takes,
For all the glory and hope to break.
'Distract yourself' I say.
But what if instead of keeping them at bay,
I break their minds, tearing them up.
I cut their hearts and drink them from a teacup.
They say to don't live in fear,
I say live inside the fear.
Control their minds like how they took over mine.
Hang their bones like a shrine.
'Don't become the fear' so they say.
To my eyes, I now see them as prey.
Overcoming them in my own way,
By hunting them down, leaving them astray.

I could breathe in the air they kept me from.
In turn, they struggled in their own spit and turned numb.
Yet, by taking back what was mine,
Slowly, I went into a decline.
Digging myself into the grave to sleep,
Just enough for me to leap.
One day I will face sweet Death,
And will be able to be in peace for the first time.

Laying to rest in my own grave, 'I am finally at peace' I say.
But I will never know about the peace that was only a few steps away.


If only I looked at what was behind me